Better off dead

Full monk mode.

Maybe the papers, the movies, the songs, the world ending, the special, the hero, the savior of all of mankind, maybe its all loud and clear. It is my time to clean up my act and show them what I got.. God is going to show his secret weapon in his right hand, he had some sharpening to do.

               
  
                                              my great grandparents had one of these outside the shed that I played on as a kid. Not knowing its signifigance in my adult spiritual life until just these last few days.




 Oh heavenly Father, you have sheltered me from mine enemies, now while we are in hiding yet, put me to the stone and sharpen me for battle. I am yours master, use me up.

Fear

I am afraid.

     I have a FEAR

                I Know my FEAR now.

                                   to be my real self
                                   the man my Father sent
                                   A savior to man kind.

The moment I do, things will change....UTTERLy.

                                          I have a fear.
All the drugs, all the fantasy, to run, to run afraid of myself.
                                              If I can stop now and embrace the fear and become one with my Fathers will.....



   

Shed my skin

Oh Lord you know me. I have been a snake with my belly in the mud and dust. Have mercy on me king of all mercy, and help me to shed my skin so that I may become the man you sent. Amen